Sydney will always be a unique and
fascinating experience of my life. Unlike any other time before, I spent this lifetime away from an enormous comfort zone, where I am
familiar with the things around me. The way of life, the morals I've grown up with, and the fairy tale I once knew seemed to shattered before my very eyes. New Zealand was gone, along with the
forests, serenity, and the happy people I enjoy every day.
From the moment I landed in this foreign land, I couldn't help but ask myself, "What the Hell am I doing in Sydney?" Given this question was mostly justified by the fact that I had absolutely no plans, and very little cash to spare. So what was I doing in Sydney? I suppose it was to find just what I saw, the extremes of life, where I would begin to explore the furthest reaches of my comfort zone.
Many people will call me crazy for taking such risks, and perhaps abandoning what I know. I don't have a problem spending a night under a bridge, fishing for my dinner, or playing music for money. None of these things I had done, but I would not feel unusual to do them.
You know the lifestyle we live is completely by choice. There are a few choices in life that will effect the others quite drastically, including having children, your choice in a partner, the knowledge you possess, and the abilities you have to obtain knowledge.
People are all crated equal, we are no better or worse, and we all have the opportunities to make choices that do effect our every day for the rest of our lives. Those choices not only influence what we do, but also what others do. That pattern continues, and can become quite contagious. In this way, and only this way, we are able to change not only ourselves, but change the world.
I want to live my life. I want to be not only rich, but be poor as well. I want to be happy, sad, frustrated as well as blissful, carefree, and simply happy.
To see the seven continents and the oceans of the world. I want to see monkeys and camels and tigers in the wild.
I want to live life in every way you possibly can!
What I've come to realize, is that I can be all of these things. We can choose to be anyone, despite our core being. The difficulty becomes choosing which of these you want to be at what point of life. Once you have realized and challenged the fact that you can be anything at anytime- it takes a lot of work. I have decided to make the most important goals part of my life, and to not worry about the rest. I have explored this idea far further, and am once again learning to enjoy being content with the everyday. That is part of what makes it exciting you know
And as I mentioned before, understanding what and who that core being is, is what enables us to do so. Facing ourselves and excepting our strengths and weaknesses, but also challenging them to be better, to grow that core being.
In doing so you will free yourselves from the mundane world, and reach a higher consciousness. Often you will find people who fight against themselves, against their core being, and they will continue living their lives in unhappiness.
Remember that I said that you could be anyone despite your core being? Well this is true, and often again it is what makes most people unhappy, but what you may be surprised about is that once you come to know your core being, you can become with it. This synchronization cannot be falsified, nor can it go against social laws.
Once you've synchronized, you are able to challenge it and push it towards who you want to be. You don't have to change your core to be happy, but it is a portal where you can challenge the laws of life.
Sydney, it was a place, a portal, nothing more. I was in a dark solitary that I was able escape from on sandy beaches and beautiful gardens. In the end though, I still returned to that dark reality each time I returned from my escape, and had to face myself in challenges unknown to me before.
I make these sound like unusual tasks, but rather they are simple facts of life- particularly city life, that I was unwilling to except before. To be honest if I were to say what they were you may think no more of it, they are simply challenges anyone could face. What is more important was the process and what changed within me, not the vessel in which it occurred.
In turn, this trip was a turning point in my life, a reality check actually, and a confirmation of my beliefs. I have discovered that, both in New Zealand and Spiritually, I have found peace and balance in my universe.
Granted I understand that balance will continually shift, I have found that here in the Southern Hemisphere, I am learning to balance my spinning plates while moving. This phenomenon is incredible, and is the blissful feeling that I call life.
I have found my place in the world, for this exact moment.
I often fear that I will loose that balance when I return home, but I think that it is like riding a bicycle. You don't forget, and if I need New Zealand for that balance, I know that I will return home again.
